Swing Life Away - 003

Dear Blogger,

There are days where you regret things that you yourself cannot control. So why regret them in the first place? There is no single answer.

Have you ever been replaced? It's kind of silly if you think of it. I mean, you are one of a kind. Even if someone looks like you, and has the same personality traits, you can never really be truly replaced. :) You are you, and no one can be a better you then obviously yourself.

Then why does it bother you? Well being replaced is never a fun experience. And if you are the one trying to replace your previous friend, how damn low can you go? Think to the future, think about how you'd feel if you were the one being replaced. Would you feel so great? How would you feel like being the one that is left in the dust? Would you hate the one that replaced you, or would you focus that anger on the ones that looked for the replacement? Do you care? I doubt it, I doubt it would cross your mind. Because it hasn't happened to you because if it did you wouldn't do it to someone else my dear.

What angers me most is the logic behind it. This is just me, but once I feel like there will always be this void between myself and a friend, one that can't be helped, or worth fixing, it's time to move on. Why preserve something that's not meant to be preserved? You're wasting your time and energy on something that was never meant to last. So why go through constant fighting for nothing? ;) Anyways I'm not the sort of person who goes back on my word. So once I say I'm done, I usually mean it. So please don't cry to me about it, or other people. If I forgive you every time you hurt me, will you learn from it? Nope, you repeat the same errors without a second thought. Maybe by not being your friend, you're left with what I last said, it will help you grow as a person.

I do not hate you. No this is not why were not friends. I'm trying to grow up and make my own mistakes. And one of them is to learn not to let people take advantage of me. So hun, until you learn your own life lessons don't make such a big deal about this. You replaced me after all.

The insecurities I have are usually with my friends.I hate loading my problems on someone else's shoulders. LOL. So I apologize a lot about that. I'm pretty much fine other than that. I'm a 100% me, I'm not perfect and though I maybe down more then most lately. But I'm lucky to have a few individuals that I call my friends, that do matter, who are there to cheer me up. Friendship is a two way street my friends, and if your willing to listen, I'm willing to listen. ;) I've seen people come and go out of my life, fakes, loved ones, greatest people I ever met, and it's hard no matter who they are. So if you need help I'm here. :) And we can help each other through this thing called "Life".

Thanks for reading,
Jessica

P.S. This is just a rant, don't take it seriously. Geez. xD Please enjoy the video below.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uyBjcs3_FZw

I'm In Love With A Fairytale - 002

Dear Blogger,

Prepare to read a rant. ;)

So lately I've been wondering, thinking, no big surprise there. :) But when I review my past, and think of all the people I was once friends with. Where did I go wrong? You know most of them are all really heavy partiers. Ha then you have me, who's never even thought of smoking in my life. Which I'm proud to admit to. I have tired a few different drinks, but I'm really not into drinking either. Like I don't understand what it's really all about? Seriously what do you accomplish from getting drunk? Maybe it's because I've seen drugs take over people's lives, and seen family members living off the bottle. Always a second thought away from their brain. Always the one that is looked upon to drop your kid off upon. Is that really a life worth living? So I ask...what the heck is up with me?

I'm just a girl who is stuck with memories, to many of them, that they just don't leave my mind but instead take over my thoughts and before I know it, I'm trapped in the past. I try my best not to hold grudges but I find the people I do forgive just end up taking advantage of me.

Yes I do have a lot of anger, but I also try to stay positive, think about the bright side of things. Happiness is just not given to you, you have to earn it. Just like you have to earn a lot of things. Life is not easy, but it's worth the adventure. Just believe in yourself and the rest will come to you.


Hobey Ho,
Jessica.

Photobooth Memories - 001

Dear, Whoever you maybe

We all been to them. That little box which we all squish into to get the perfect picture. But instead we get four wacky ones. Where we all laugh and point at our own funny faces. Those four small pictures are then separated between you and your friend/friends and then they are lost overtime, until you stumble upon it while looking for something else. It's like magic isn't it? That little moment is frozen there, frozen for all to see. It's there to remind you of the fun times that you once had or may still have. It's there to show you a glimpse into the past back to who you once were, and now gives you time to reflect who you are now in the present.

Grasp it, don't miss it, because even though it was a picture of what use to be, it's one of many things that make you who you are now.

This is my blog.
Enjoy. :)

Sincerely Yours,
Jessica